Last night, I was watching The Biggest Loser: Couples and the girl who was voted off said something that struck a chord with me. She said she was always going to start a diet on Monday but Monday never came. I’m much the same way. I’ll get it in my head that on Monday I’ll do whatever it is I want to do or stop doing what I want to stop only Monday becomes next Monday. Why wait until Monday? Why not start NOW?
Today, I went to the store and stocked up on healthy treats and I’ve been searching different forums online for weight loss ideas. Not so much a diet, but more of changing habits to live healthier. I don’t want Khaila to think that it’s okay to be obese. Yes, I want to show her that no matter how you look on the outside it doesn’t change the inside. I want her to be confident with her body image. At the same time, I want her to be healthy. And yes, I’m a little scared of her being the “fat kid” like I was and if I can instill good habits now to save that pain later, I’m going to!
I weighed myself tonight and I was shocked at the number! The last time I got on a scale was a few months ago and I could have cried when I saw 245! Today, without really paying attention to what I’ve been eating, without working out, I’m down to 220! I attribute that to actually eating MORE and not putting my body into starvation mode as well as getting back to work in a more physically demanding position. I’m looking forward to the success of seeing a one as the first number on that scale, hopefully in about 10 weeks!